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“Deep calls to deep…” Psalm 42:7a
For the past few weeks, this passage has been on my heart. Today was no exception. As I scrounged for coffee, I found myself meditating on it once again. Stopping to pray for clarity I reviewed my study notes from a few weeks ago.
What I read astonished me. My unacknowledged love for the house of God lay clearly on the pages of my notebook. Longing for a place to worship outside the walls of my own home. I desire to be among a fellowship of believers once again.
“These things I remember as I pour out my soul: how I used to go to the house of God under the protection of the Mighty One with shouts of joy and praise among the festive throng.”
Psalm 42:4 NIV
I distanced myself several months back. Growing weary of unwanted attention. It accompanies the life of an unmarried woman who just happens to be called to preach the gospel. It’s exhausting. Heartbreaking in fact.
I have so much to give and I don’t mean financially. I’ve been gifted with various gifts to edify the body of Christ. The ability to cast a vision and a willingness to work towards bringing it to pass is only one of a few. All to the glory of God. What could be greater?
Over the past few years my desire to study has waned. Merely reading the surface to maintain my thought life and relationship with the Lord is where I’ve found myself.
On May 29th I studied this psalm in detail. My notes from the Treasury of David reads as its subject “it is the cry of a man far removed from the outward ordinances and worship of God, sighing for the long-loved house of his God…”
How beautiful to see the desires of my heart written on the pages from so long ago. If you are not aware the Treasury of David is a lovely commentary on the book of psalms. A wonderful resource if you desire to delve deeper into a passage during your time with God.
As for me… I will continue to pray for God’s will for my life. I long for peace as well as fellowship wherever I decide to place my membership. Surely the two can coexist in a house of worship.
Til next time…
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